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Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
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10:20 pm - And I'm Out, Once And for all
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This is the end.. once and for all I'm tired of your fuckin melodramatic bullshit. This is the last time I'll write in this thing. I dont give a shit about your opinions, as you really shouldnt about mine(you know who you are, fuckin dumbasses, especially when you cant say that shit to my face) Stay in your bubble, and ill fuckin stay in mine. I dont care who i piss off with this, because if you do get pissed then youre just another dumbass gettin caught up in useless drama. So seriously, if you have something to say to me, say it to my face instead of talking about how im an asshole behind my back. This isnt about one person or w/e, its about all of you that have done it and either played it off as nothing, or close to it. Ok, well, thats it. I'm not givin u the pleasure of knowing shit about me anymore. It's all stayin inside. It's better that way, since I can't trust almost any of you. Whether or not ill make a new lj and only tell a select few of you(dont get offended if i dont, because you prolly caused it in some way or another)
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current mood:  annoyed
current music: KMFDM -- WWIII
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| Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
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7:49 pm - Do it..please?
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You represent... apathy.
You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.
What feeling do you represent?
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Dear Keith,
You are really _____. You should _____. We need to go _____. After that we can _____. Remember that time we _____? That was real _____. Maybe tomorrow we can _____. You are my _____. I _____ you!
Love, _______
P.S. _____.
current mood:  sick
current music: Slipknot -- Purity
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| Monday, November 1st, 2004
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10:16 pm - Boredom strikes thrice
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1 MINUTE AGO: Thought about how tomorrow seems boring
1 HOUR AGO: Sittin here bored
1 YEAR AGO: idk
I LOVE: having a life..i think, cant remember *cough*
I HATE: People(most of ya!) =D
I FEAR: That I'll die alone in a gutter
I HOPE: That I can get away from people that suck
I FEEL: bored
I HIDE: umm.. idk
I DRIVE: no i dont
I MISS: having a life
I LEARN: stuff
I NEED: to sleep prolly
I THINK: about how i hate people!
FIRSTS..
First screen name: holy shit.. umm... No clue
First piercing/tattoo: none... yet
First enemy: idk
First concert: Raffi!
First musician you remember hearing in your house: The Offspring
LASTS..
Last big car ride: uhh... idk
Last kiss: awhile
Last movie seen: Scary Movie III
Last food consumed: lasagna..i want more
Last phone call: Wow, WAY too long ago
Last CD played: American Idiot
Last drink drank: Apple Cider
Last time scolded: 10 minutes ago
SHORT ANSWER..
I AM: bored
I WANT: to do something
I HAVE: stuff!
I WISH: That someone would kidnap me.
I HATE: people
I WONDER: Why people suck..really bad
I ACHE: from mosh pits(still)
I ALWAYS: breathe!
I DANCE: I can't dance. Someone needs to teach me.
I SING: I wish I could.. someone should teach me
I CRY: I dont
I AM NOT ALWAYS: pissed
I WRITE: in my creative writing journal?
I WIN: alot of things?
I LOSE: at some stuff
I CONFUSE:myself
I SHOULD: sleep? didnt i answer most of these twice now?
FAVORITES..
NUMBER: 23
COLOR(S): black, gray
DAYS: friday
MONTH: June
SONG(S): Anything by HIM or The Offspring
SEASON: late spring
DRINK: soda, coffee, just about anything
IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED?: no
HELPED SOMEONE?: yeah
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: yea
GOTTEN SICK?: nope
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: no, been awhile
SAID 'i love you'?: yea
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: no
TALKED TO AN EX?: yea
MISSED AN EX?: no way in hell
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: my creative writing journal, but its all poems
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: Yea
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yea
Oh, and on a side note, I'm gettin tired of writing in this thing for a few reasons, so I prolly won't be updating as much anymore. Maybe I won't stop, idk. But for awhile, I won't be
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Switchblade Symphony -- Rain
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| Friday, October 22nd, 2004
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5:59 pm - Wow, this is really boring
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Agh, today has sucked... Here's why!
Before school -- Got there at about 7 30, nothing happened(not that i was expecting anything to anyways)
A -- Chem.. a worksheet, then called down to pep rally..
Pep Rally -- The most boring thing EVER.. band had to be there, and it was annoying as hell, as i dont give a shit about the school, or school spirit. Plus, I'm extremely tired and I have a huge ass headache.. luckily I was able to leave and early and go to...
MST -- Erik fucked up and scheduled or taping for tuesday, and rehearsel today.. yea.. It was horrible.. im not meant to be on camera
E -- Long extra lunch.. kinda boring
F -- Nothing special
G -- Lunch.. I dont like that lunch that much
H -- Band, I dont care for it as much lately, idk y.. probably scagnelli, and im tired of the tenors as most of them SUCK
After school -- Sat around with a few ppl, then went home
Now -- Being bored as shit, wishing I was doing something
current mood:  bored
current music: None
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4:55 pm
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Have you ever..]
Smoked Pot? nope
Kissed Someone? yea
Did a Cartwheel? kinda? =p
Had a pedicure? nope..=p
Played tennis? attempted
Swam in a thunderstorm? yea
Surfed? who would surf in the atlantic ocean? who would?
Drank strawberry milk? yeah
Been to California? nope
Been to Flordia? once
Been out of the country? canada
Played strip poker? not yet
Played regular poker? yea
Climbed a tree? yea
Broken an arm? nope
Broke a mirror? yea, im so ugly
Punched someone? yea!
Ate Paper? yea
Failed a test? what do you think?
Skipped school? never
Been out to dinner without your parents? unfortunately
Driven without a license? a learners permit! =p
Stolen something over 300? never stolen anything
Been pregnant? nope, not yet ;) =p
Been to Walt Disney World? no.....
Watched porn?maybe
Listened to nysnc? not by choice
Been to six Flags? yea, once
Watched MTV Video Clash? what is it?
-Current Clothes: black pants, my machine sweatshirt, black jeans
- Current Mood: bored..
- Current Music: Closer -- NIN
- Current Taste: idk
- Current Make-up: nope
- Current Hair: short and spikey
- Current Smell: no clue what that is
- Current thing I ought to be doing: idk
- Current Desktop Picture: JTHM
- Current Favorite Artist: NIN, or Manson, but thats more a group =p
- Current Favorite Group: Offspring
- Current Book: umm.. idk, i dont really read
- Current CD in CD Player: disc 3(The Downward Spiral -- NIN)
-rent tape in VCR: idk
-Color Of Toenails: clear?
- Current Worry: im gonna sit here bored tonight..
current mood: bored
current music: Closer -- NIN
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| Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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10:31 pm - Warning :: Extreme Yankee Hating (Not that anyone minds!) =p
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Wheres your FUCKING GOD NOW NY!!! The Bambino wont save you now. Curse? What curse? And keep the faith. Am I one of the few? Take a look at exhibit A
RedSox5243438: Im happy
HisFuneralPyre: lol
HisFuneralPyre: u lost faith
HisFuneralPyre: u dont deserve to see the game
RedSox5243438: no I DIDNT
HisFuneralPyre: yea u did!!!!
HisFuneralPyre: everytime they got a runner u said it was over!
RedSox5243438: that was me?
HisFuneralPyre: yes
HisFuneralPyre: u said a few times at least our season was over
HisFuneralPyre: see
HisFuneralPyre: ure speachless
RedSox5243438: I had to get something lol
HisFuneralPyre: lol
HisFuneralPyre: its true tho
HisFuneralPyre: u said it was over
RedSox5243438: well... thats my relationship w/ the sox. lol
HisFuneralPyre: u lost the faith!
RedSox5243438: hey when I insult them, they win. lol
HisFuneralPyre: lol
HisFuneralPyre: u insulted them in game 2!
HisFuneralPyre: and 3!
RedSox5243438: lol ik
RedSox5243438: and look wat they r doing now. lol
RedSox5243438: :-D
RedSox5243438: see it helps
RedSox5243438: g2g c ya
RedSox5243438 signed off at 10:32:33 PM.
Keep the faith. It's never over until the last out is made.
In the immortal words of Bruce Willis... "Yippykayay MothaFucker"
Cowboy Up
current mood:  Yippykayay Motherfucker
current music: The Game/ Marilyn Manson -- The Dope Show
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| Sunday, October 17th, 2004
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3:44 pm - Im so bored, So I'll update! And DO THIS! please?
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Update update update.. hmm.. i havent done anything today, so idk what to talk about. I'm gonna go find some fillout thing somewhere, and yea!
1.) Who are you?
2.) Are we friends?
3.) When and how did we meet?
4.) How have I affected you?
5.) What do you think of me?
6.) What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7.) How long do you think we will be friends?
8.) Do you love me?
9.) Do you have a crush on me?
10.) Would you kiss me?
11.) Would you hug me?
12.) Physically, what stands out?
13.) Emotionally, what stands out?
14.) Do you wish I was cooler?
15.) On a scale of 0-10, how hot am I?
16.) Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17.) Am I lovable?
18.) How long have you known me?
19.) Describe me in one word.
20.) What was your first impression?
21.) Do you still think that way about me now?
22.) What do you think my weakness is?
23.) Do you think I'll get married?
24.) What makes me happy?
25.) What makes me sad?
26.) What reminds you of me?
27.) If you could give me anything what would it be?
28.) How well do you know me?
29.) When's the last time you saw me?
30.) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31.) Do you think I could kill someone?
32.) Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33.) Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
Do it! Please? It's not THAT long!
current mood: bored
current music: The Offspring -- Living In Chaos
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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7:53 pm - All of you!!!
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You all failed my quiz! You know anywhere from 60 - around what, 30% of everything about me. That's pathetic. So, stealing this from San, Redeem yourself! Tell me honestly A) what you think of me, B) Favorite thing about me and C) the worst thing about me. DO all 3!!!
current mood:  Paranoid and Such
current music: The Offspring -- Walla Walla
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| Thursday, October 14th, 2004
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12:30 pm - All Along, I still believed in you.. Now I Stand Here Betrayed and Broken
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Deep inside secret's burning
I Should have known all the while what's true
I went along, to fool myself
Can't go on, I can't escape it
All along
I think I really knew
It was there in the words unspoken
All along
Still believed in you
Now I stand here betrayed and broken
Close my eyes from the burning
All along all the while it's true
Take it on, or turn your back
Either way, you can't escape it
I realized I'm not paranoid. It's not paranoia when it's truly happening. Thanks to all the assholes that think it's right to turn on someone. If you want to kill me, stab me from the front, so you can see what youve done.
current mood:  Betrayed
current music: The Offspring
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| Wednesday, October 13th, 2004
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5:34 pm
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| Tuesday, October 12th, 2004
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4:55 pm - Slipping from the top, the fall is inevitable
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Fuck, just a few entries ago, all was great. I got a job, I'm gonna be able to pay to go to NY, things were great, life was peachy. In the last few days it's all fallen apart. I still have the job, but i have to find a way to get to bedford for some orientation thing prolly thursday, at around 3 30 or 4 or somethin, and its a few hours long i think. Meaning I'll miss the meeting to go to NY, so i cant go. What the hell would this meeting be? just rules that we hafta follow maybe? Needless information? WTF! So I can't go to NY if I want the job, and I cant get a job to be able to pay for NY if i go to the meeting.. It' obvious which im picking. Fuck NY. Fuck these rules the music dept is putting up. Fuck all of em.
I also realized this drama we put in our lives is completely fucking meaningless. It's these meaningless problems, relationships, etc. Why? Each step is preperation for the next. We're simply being trained to keep this system going. Why cant we set up our own system, and live off our own instincts. Anyways, back on subject. I'm tired of all this meaningless drama. Why do we get so into our problems and everything when its so unimportant?!?
current mood:  Fuck this shit
current music: NIN -- Mr. Self Destruct
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| Monday, October 11th, 2004
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6:18 pm - Me in a nutshell
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Ok, I'm getting fucking tired of people having the wrong perception of me. All I am is human, I have many flaws, and I'll be the first to admit many of them. I don't need people pointing out everything that's wrong with me. I'm simply this. A sometimes timid apparently antisocial guy who never feels comfortable with his position in life, or in any situation. This is why I can seem antisocial, really.I seem to feel like the oddman out in so many situations, but w/e. Fuck it.Why the hell any of you put up with me is the question. really, answer. I wouldn't want to be around me if i wasn't me. Again, tho, fuck it. I don't give a shit. You don't like me, fuck off.
In review, I'm the kind of person that won't speak unless spoken to, due to the presumption that if something isn't said to me, you don't want to associate with me. In which case you can fuck off.
Have a nice day
Keith
current mood: annoyed
current music: Sex Pistols -- I Fought The Law
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12:51 pm - Here I am again
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Ok, my weekend was kinda really shitty..
Friday -- Movies with ppl, I really wasn't talked to, so i didnt talk to anyone. Shitty movie, waste of a few hours and 7.75
Saturday -- Sat around doing nothing
Sunday -- Again, nothing
Monday -- So far nothing. not looking like ill be doing anything soon either.
So that was my weekend! The only reason I updated was because I havent for awhile.
current mood:  discontent, but fuck it
current music: NIN -- Piggy
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| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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9:02 pm - Hehe, forgot a few things, and im too lazy to edit
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First off, for all you that I havent told yet, I got a new sn, HisFuneralPyre
And Secondly, the reason I'm more content than usual is I finally got an interview(McDonalds)
current mood:  Forgetful
current music: Same
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8:42 pm - Balancing On Top Of The World.. One Slight Slip, and It's A Downward Spiral
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Today's been great, as far as hope for the future slightly starting to return. This morning was pretty good, I got up, after writing until about 3ish this morning, (and all i got done was a potential song, and 2 poems(one which could also turn into a song or somethin)) Which I'm not too in love with, but I'm very critical about everything I do. I'm really modest. It's a flaw, to this extent.
Then I went to school, and it went like this
Chem -- Pretty good, I guess, not incredible, but w/e
US History -- Movie then worksheet thing, didnt get much of it done, but I have until friday
Video -- We started 'round one' which is a talking head show (which is like all those shows on mctv, with the superintendant and such), and I'm pretty much taking charge of my group, as it's me, erik and fritz, and they dont take it too serious, but its funny as hell.
Creative Writing -- Went over some worksheets
Lunch -- Not even gonna try to describe it here,just 6 words, gay orphan killer babies with 9mms!
Band -- Ensemble stuff, i realized there arent many saxes i dont hate, my frosh tenors(tony and jimmy!) And a few altos.
current mood:  content
current music: Dream On -- (IDK, but if u do, tell me! And thx ken!)
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| Friday, October 1st, 2004
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6:43 pm - Betrayed
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Ok, before you read this, know that I don't want pity. Please. I need a place to vent, and I'm online, so here I am.
I've been thinking alot lately, and I'm realizing that I really haven't done anything at all as of late. People do things, and noone tells me anything of them. I'm used to being the ofd utib been it my entire life, but as of late, I'm realizing that the people hat I call friends are more like acquaintances now. They've all seem to 'run out of a reason to talk to me' I've been replaced, in many cases. Then there are the people that I just don't see anymore, dont talk to. People that at one saventrusted my life to, I now don't know if I could trust to pay me back a quarter. I'm down to sometimes not even getting the 'hey' in the hall from people. My friends seem to change every year, depending on my classes. I dont get it. Mainly the number just goes down because I'm pretty damn anti social. So yea, I have this feeling that by senior year, the number will be down to 10ish. honestly. and i'll be fine with that. W/e.(I'm debating posting this, as most of you will probably take it personally. However, it;s the same here. I translate so many different actions, even the smallest ones, into something, but thats my take on them all. not yours) People are the source of all problems. I dont want to be friendless, but if it happens so be it. It's your friends that seem to judge you more than anyone, if you people havent noticed.
The saddest part is, tho, that some people I've known only for a few weeks or w/e are closer than some that i have known for years(which doesnt mean much, as i'm close to very few people, anyways) It's been getting me down lately, though, that my friends, even the closest ones (if you are, you can prolly guess who you are) are never wanting to be anywhere near me it seems outside of school. And if that is true, then w/e(again, you people know who you are), I guess we aren't as close as I thought. And I don't want to be invited places or w/e out of pity. Fuck that. I'd use the old cliche, I'll get new friends, but I prolly couldn't, to be quite honest with myself. I'm really bad at talking to people in general, even those i call friends, not to mention people I dont even know. And if you dont want to associate with me, fuckin tell me. Seriously. And if you do want to associate with me, then by all means do. Ok, I guess that's enough for now.. you get the picture. Theres a few types of the betrayal I've experienced lately that I left out, but fuck it. It all still exists. And if youre a part of it, you know.
Later
|~~--Keith--~~|
current mood:  Fuck Off
current music: Atreyu -- A Vampire's Lament
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| Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
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6:10 pm - What a fuckin day
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I'll just go through like I always do.
Before school -- walked, Sam got out of her car halfway, finished walk to school, sat in band room, etc etc
A -- Some worksheets, w/e, boring as always
B -- Notes like always
HR -- Stoner bein an ass like always, but everyone hates him, so its all good! =p
C,D,E -- MST -- Sub, me and erik found some apple with a pencil through it and spent all period trying to find a way to hide it under the table(by hanging it between tables etc etc =p) and we attatched a note to it, while some movie played in the background. That was fuckin funny.
F -- Nothing really, we had to do some boring shit.
G -- Lunch, I sat in a practice room w/ Matt, Jon and.. Tim, i think his name was. I tried to play trumpet, but matt was all pissed because i sucked after a whole ..5 minutes of playing!! damn, matt! give me a chance. =p
H -- Speach about ad books, voting for officers, etc etc, most of ya were there.
After school -- w/e =p
current mood: blank
current music: Atreyu -- Lip Gloss and Black
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| Friday, September 24th, 2004
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11:05 pm - Bruno Pompee, PI! =p
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Today is not going to be easily forgotten. It was one of those days you remember, for w/e reasons. I think its just because it kinda stands out from most days because it wasnt exactly like every other day, really.Not all good, but i wont get into that, as its not relevant to any of you, and i dont feel like posting my problems on here.
So ill start at the beginning. I woke up, showered, went to school, band room in the morning, then chem, history, mst, creative writing, lunch, band(where me eddie and cara were sitting outside as Mr. B told us to go out =p) then i sat around after school, i dont remember much of that off the top of my head, went home, my mom definitely thinks i smoke weed(which i dont), then my lawn mower broke, so i left as quickly as i could to get back to school, as it was akward at my house, as all kindsa shit happened(which i wont bother you with, as id rather not say anyways.. supress everything, supress everything =p) so i went back, game, which was very much amusing, and here i am. There was something about today that i cant quite pick up on, but it was..different..changing.. if today and all its events were eliminated, then id be a much different person living a much different life, i think. I can act really well, i think, though. Today, from when i got home to now and on, has sucked. But none of you noticed, did you? That would be for 2 reasons.
A) I try to not show when im depressed, pissed, etc. Hence why i seem happy generally. I'm not really into getting pity...at all. I don't need or want it, so why give people the opportunity?
B) Same as #1, pretty much. I can act.
Well, its time to close my eyes, i guess.
Gnight everyone.
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12:21 am - Today!
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Ok, Here I am at 12:21 updating so i dont forget what happened today.
Sectionals this morning.. sucked, as shannon has no clue what shes doing seemingly. John was an arrogant asshole, but after that, i got to just sit there and have some good times =p *wink* haha.
The rest of the day was pretty much normal, lunch was fuckin great =p, of course noone that reads this was there.
After school, nothing happened. I came home, sat around for awhile, and did not all too much. At around 8 i decided to start my brochure for US history. I just finished it. The 4 hours while i was doin that Ken and I exchanged music, and i got some great songs! Excuse my deadness tomorrow, when u read this you will see why i will be so dead tomorrow(most of you will read this AFTER you see me)
I've gotta go sleep now
And we'll all float on ok... and we'll all float on anyway..
Gnight
Keith!(As though you didnt know it was me)
current mood:  Tired, Yet Content..
current music: Modest Mouse -- Float On
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| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
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8:31 pm - Words I Hate!! W/ Special Guest Star, Words That Make Me Laugh!!
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Hate!!
Chillaxin
w00t (or any variations)
Chemistry
Poser
Labels
Stereotypes
Sleep
etcetc
Laugh!!
Gritz
Slammalammadingdong!
Spatula
Clock
Trampoline
Morgasm
Berection
Fiddling
Whack
Jerk
Random moaning noises coming from public(or private) restrooms
Elephant
Bulb
Bulbus
Bosom
Clank
Zebra
Llama
Bangcock(the capital thing)
Weiner
Poor Orphans(Porphans)
Climax
Cheetos
Twizzlers
Tiddle
Slinky
Thats all for now
current mood: Sleep Updating
current music: KoRn -- Falling away from me
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